This

This isn't love.
Expectation and obligation,
are just another weak rationalization
for an attempt to control.

This isn't friendship.
This judgemental intrusion,
only serves to feed the illusion
that you know how to love yourself.

This isn't worth it.
To be in your presence
is like denying my own essence.
I just don't see the point.

This is me,
accepting the reality
that we just see things differently
and neither of us will change.

This is me
aware of what's conflicting,
and all I keep on thinking
is it could be no other way.

This is me,
choosing to be empowered
instead of powerlessly soured
for the sake of playing nice.

i like This alot...will come back to say why, i promise. also like your choice of icons...Lao Ma would be proud of This i feel...

um...who are you really? this pen pal shit has me at a loss.

It's Chiana. I guess I should do as Lila suggested and put a clue in the sig!

K,

Good stuff. Loved it. Flowed really nicely. Read it a couple of times and discovered something new every time. Very authoratative.

"I'm mad as hell, you suck, and I ain't gonna take it no more."

Keep it up.

That was very nice. To me it talks about strength and persistency in women. I like it.

i like the last 3 stanzas starting with "this is me..." very assertive, affirmative. not what you're not, what you is ( ). not a cop out, not a confession. just tellin' it it t-i-is, as we say in Texas.

This...rocks. Thru and thru. It's totally where I"m at right now too.

Take no shit, be no one's doormat, sometimes I still need reminding not to do that...but when we keep empowering ourselves and taking care of number one first...then we can TRULY find balance.

You're on the right track, Chiana. Keep up the great work!

Now, I need to stop being lazy and sign in, lol, I got a penpal letter to answer myself hehe.

Thank you all so much for your comments!

For the past several days I have been mad as hell. Just tired of the same old situation cycling itself again. Then today, all cathartic like, this came out. I haven't written poetry in a while and boom.

I'm just done. I don't want to talk the situation over with this person. I don't want to reach any kind of mutual understanding. You know, like that chick says, "My give a damn is busted."

too close to home
but it's awesome indeed

Thanks, Tam!

Great work Chiana! I had to print it out and give it to my stepdaughter, she's going through something that sounds very similar. I gave it to her and she liked it too. I tell her she needs to make "I" statements, not "I'm not."

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um...who are you really? this pen pal shit has me at a loss.

Ha! I love to hear that! I'm so lost around here now it took me three days of reading to figure out who everyone is!

Sweet! Thanks, Nanzar!