Hey everyone. I'm finally dragging the old muse out for a spin... You could say I guess I just needed to get some of this outta me. I'm sure everyone goes through this when they first move out or start their life somewhere new...hopes clashing with being scared, all of that. But here's my version of the story nonetheless. Thanks for reading, it's been awhile.

~Gabber
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“Let Her Fly”

I’m trying my best
To live up to all you’ve hoped for
I’m trying so hard
To not disappoint myself in all of this
It’s so easy to fall
When you’ve never stepped out on your own
But here I am, trying again, and trying once more
To be proud of myself today

I’ve given up everything
I’ve let go of the only life I’ve ever known
You’d think that’d be enough for me
Something to realize how far I’ve come
But I’m rarely satisfied
I always want more

Happiness collides with fear
So relieved to be here tonight in your arms
But so scared I’ll fail us both
I’ve started a life with love and hope
The future starts now
And there’s only so much room for mistakes
I want to do right by us
To fulfill our dreams

I pray to God every night before I go to sleep
That He gives me the strength to dive so deep
I can’t let my heart clench up and stop beating on
Because to do so would be a slap in the face
For all the wonders He’s done for me
For all the beauty He’s lifted me up to be

Let me cry a little, let go a little
Let me feel the beauty and dissolve the pain
Let me hold onto my foundation
But let me fly with the wings waiting to enflame
A little bit of the girl, the woman from California
Emerging with this lady in Texas
Someone with two homes but one life
One heart that’s ready to be all I’ve dreamed
A soul that’s ready to take flight.

---2/3/06 Copyright Keri S. (Gabber)

Cool poem.

Hey - wouldn't it be awesome if you did a poem each year on the anniversary of "THE BIG MOVE" and kept 'em in a folder.

That way you could look back at all the stages of your new life.

Keep writing!

Really good use of language, Keri...very naked and vulnerable...letting go of one life and embracing another...yes that's a hard one for many of us at various stages, yup.

I liked this last one the best:

Let me cry a little, let go a little
Let me feel the beauty and dissolve the pain
Let me hold onto my foundation
But let me fly with the wings waiting to enflame


Gets real honest there, like you're no longer trying to justify or resist the feelings, just accept them. That's the key to really letting go and embracing the newness. Awesome.